I'm back!

Back in my Levi's that is...hehe...after 4 months of fully bfing...hehe...itu belum lagi exercise... hehe...This was taken on thursday nite on my way out with some friends. My first ladies' nite out after such a very very long months. And I thought that I had to say goodbye to this jeans...haha...But I'm still top heavy...never mind, you win some and you lose some, right?

Now all I have to do is find the will power to tighten my flabby stomach...Crunches anyone?

Random post

Happy CNY! It was a very long weekends. So super duper liat going to work today. My hubby still enjoying his holiday with Bono today. He got 1 week off from work. I will be staying at my hubby's kampung this week. That means no internet service. Luckily my school have one (the signal is low though :( ).

I'm a little bit confuse with some people who pride themselves as internet savvy but do not bother to do any research on any topic. I'm trying so hard not to judge but I can not think of any reason. My hub would hush me whenever I mentioned this - he always remind me that not everyone likes to read (yeah, he's that kind of person-totally hate gossip). But I'm wondering. Especially when that said person is going on and on about some topic that sungguh la ketara nda logic ni...haiii, I'm carrying the world on my shoulder...hehe..that's why this is called random post. Hanya untuk buang masa...

Yeah, time to go home...Enjoy your day!

Trying to be a better person

We had to work today. A meeting. It's been 3 working saturdays for this month. But I better stop whining about it. That's one of my resolution. Trying to tone down the complaining. I know for sure some people have it worse.

Things that I'm grateful for:

1. Happy little Bono.
2. Healthy family.
3. Wonderful husband.
   
4. A roof above our head.
5. Ability to provide for family.

So no matter how annoying my boss would be, I'll try my best not to complain. Beside my Muslim friend said that orang yang kena umpat akan dapat pahala...

What a day!

Today was crap. My boss must be having pre-menopause (ya, ya, I know it's a mean thing to say). Giving people warning letters for minor minor stuff. Hai, palui palui...she must be thinking that people are following her stupid orders out of respect. Duh! When the truth is that everyone is fearful of your dictatorship. Always going on and on about surat tunjuk sebab lah, surat amaran lah, potong gaji lah...What is that? Leadership is much much more than that. You should be concentrating on the core business of our profession. Come on lah, even though you are the superior, still sama-sama makan gaji mah...stop messing our personal file with your nonsense surats and concentrate more on the bigger picture!

Separation anxiety

Today was the 2nd day of sending little Bono to the nursery. And I thought the first day would be the hardest. But I was wrong. Yesterday, he was fine and I was fine because he was sleeping soundly when I sent him. But today...oh, boy! The moment the caretaker took him from me, he opened his eyes and gave his widest gummy smile. And my heart almost broke into a million pieces. I felt so guilty of not being able to take care of him myself. I have the strongest desire to snatch him back into my arms and drive back home. To hell with work today!

I wish I have lots of money. Win the jackpot maybe? If I have the money I would quit my current job in a heartbeat. Of course, I won't be a full time SAHM. I'll go crazy. And I'll be feeling guilty spending the money that I'm not earning myself (it won't be fun to do shopping anymore!). I'm thinking of opening my own shop, where I could bring Bono to work. Hehe...what a dream...moral of the story, keep on buying lottery ticket! Well, if I have the time to go out and buy one.

Right now, I'm waiting for the CD to be wash by my er, washing machine. And I'm so sleepy that I could cry. Closing my eyes for a few seconds is such a bliss. But I do not dare to actually lie down and take a nap. So afraid that I'll oversleep like yesterday. I woke up at 6 pm! I had to rush everything, put out the CD to dry, boil water to bath Bono, bath Bono while he was crying for his feed, nurse Bono, sterilise breast pump and bottles for the next day, etc, etc. Life is so hectic nowadays...but I'm so totally in love with my baby! Muaks!

The year of the tiger

(Image captured from google)

Happy New Year everyone! Just came home from hubby's kampung last night. It was a very long stay-from the 23rd December. Yup, spent both Christmas and New Year there. We had to. Both of us (hubby and I) are not feeling confident enough traveling far with a 2 months old baby.

2009 has end. So, what did I accomplish?

1. I got pregnant and carried a baby in my womb for 9 months. Duh.
   
2. Giving birth. Who would have thought I could do it? I'm pretty amaze at myself (hehe). Natural birth with no epidural or gas.
3. Went through confinement and spent 2 weeks with unwashed hair. Gross.
4. I'm breastfeeding my baby 100%. No formula after the first 3 days (I had blood transfusion and was feeling so weak).
5. Been using lampin and cloth diapers on my son since day 1. Now, I'm totally immune to baby's poop. Both the smell and look.
6. Oh, I had my braces for the whole year. My teeth are almost pretty now.
7. Financially, no changes. No new debts and no saving either. I sucks at handling money. And for this reason, I don't own credit card. Not a single one.
8. I learned to do internet shopping. Hahaha.

That's all? I can't seem to recall anything else. My postpartum mind is still mushy.

So, what's my aim for 2010? I have written it down in my planning book (yeah, I have such a book). Some are very typical one, like being a better mom, wife, daughter, person etc, getting fitter and sleeping more, shop smarter and save more, eat healthier, become a domestic goddess etc etc. Some a bit more specific which I won't share with anyone else except hubby...of course I'll blab about it when I succeed. Hehe. Show off.

CD-zilla on the loose!

At last, my parcel arrived yesterday. Yeah! The content? Hehehe...

2 Dream Eze AIO Fitted size s (marigold & plum blossom) 2 Starbunz Pocket size m (monkey & cheetah - I like lion but no stock. This was on sale!) & 1 MPBBA size s. All from Tiny Tapir. And all are being wash for the 2nd time.

Oh and I also bought these mutts from Farrah.

2 NB Muttaqin Baby (thanks for the wipes Far..hehe..)

It arrived weeks ago but didn't have the time to blog. This diaper is very good in containing runny poops and sooo cute-but almost outgrown...hmmm more reason to shop for new ones. Heh!

Here's mini me doing a shot at modeling:

At 3 wks ++ wearing the dino mutt

At 4wks wearing the stripey mutt
(Excuse the blurry pics, I'm so not good at using the camera. Need to practice more...)

Aaand I'm still waiting for another parcel from MyCheekyBoo. Hehe, can't wait. Speaking of MyCheekyBoo, they are having a X'mas Give Away. Ho, ho, ho! It's in their blog. 2 lucky persons could win TWO Moo Moo Kow Diaper in their own choice of colour! Very cool, isn't it?

It would be great to win this diapers (hint, hint!) because I'm still building my stash...2 free diapers will go a long long way because I have exhaust my bank account..huhu..My choice of colour would be:

This looks unique. Blue buttons on white.

Red. I simply love red. Very christmassy.
(Both images copied from MyCheekyBoo)

Please, please, pleeaase...let me win this give away!

Bad advice on BF

So glad to be back at our own home. Spent the weekends at hubby's kg to celebrate my son's full moon. The party went great and I enjoyed seeing and "updating" with my friends after my long confinement. But what I can't stand is the advices given by well meaning ILs regarding BF. I don't mind the advices itself but the way they gave it yang bikin panasss. Like, they insist you to follow exactly what they say.

Here's some:

1. This one from my MIL. The moment she saw me BF my son she said, "You should train your baby to drink from bottle (meaning formula) so that other people can babysit him." I just smiled. Hubby came to the rescue, explaining about EBM, pumping etc etc.
   
2. One time I woke up my son to BF because my breasts were engorged and I did not bring my pump. Later on, the elder said that next time I should picit2 my breast first to kasih keluar some of the susu yang bangas. I was speechless. Breastmilk that is still in the breast can spoil meh! I never read this but logically thinking there's nothing wrong with BM no matter how long it stays in the breasts (if it's possible than all mom can produce cheese from their breast lorr). The only risk is your breast becoming painfully engorged and sometimes can lead to blocked duct.
3. Than my SIL told me to give some water to my son. Which I totally refuse. And she was so unsatisfied that she repeat it again to my hubby. Luckily my hubby is so well informed (after hearing my "sharing" on BF). And he said, "No, we won't give our baby any water until he starts to eat solid". Hahaha, I win. But now I'm sooo nervous to let her babysit (hai, mana tau she give water oh).
4. Now my SILs know how stubborn I am (yes, I may keep quiet and won't confront you or talk back but I won't do what I don't want to), they rally on my hubby. Kesian hubby but it's ok because he can answer back his own sisters. They keep pressuring to use formula milk. The reason? Baby more intelligent. Excuse me? Are you insulting me? Do you mean to say that MY breast milk will produce dumb baby? Just because FM is very expensive compare to BM, which is totally free, doesn't make it more superior. FM is man made. How can it ever be in the same league with BM?
5. And they said that the rashes on my son's face is cause by my heaty BM. No comment.

Nasib baik my son is quite a big baby. At least they can not say that my BM is not enough. I'm so so thankful that my mom took care of me during confinement. She support BF 100%. Me and my siblings are all fully breastfed. I was breastfed until I was 4 yo because my little sister is 8 years younger than me. Aaand my mother, that never had any formal education, knows that fully breastfed babies don't need any extra water. Cool.

P/S: My ILs are actually great and I really do get along well with them. This is just a letting-off-steam session.